29 september 2009

hari berganti hari, september sebentar lagi akan berlalu.kenangan manis akan september sebentar lagi akan berganti oktober,entah apa yang ada di bulan oktober, aku pun tak tau.

aku tak mau tau, mungkin akan terlalu menyakitkan atau menyenangkan, aku tak mau tau.

mengingat smua knangan yang ada di september, sangatlah membuat bahagia, tapi juga membuat perih hati.

122 hari bisa kulewati, dengan susah payah kulewati.jika harus kulewati 122 hari lagi, ya aku bisa, walaupun penuh luka karena keinginan untuk bertemu, aku bisa.

betul kata seseorang,terlalu berlebihan, memakai hati.

bagaimana bisa? tak tau, tiba-tiba saja smua itu tumpah, seperti air yang sudah dijaga dengan baik, namun tetap saja terkena goncangan yang lembut dan membuat smuanya tumpah.

perasaan yang dijaga dengan ketatnya,agar tak terlalu berharap, namun tetap pada akhirnya semua gagal, perasaan itu meledak dengan sendirinya, penuh harapan, harapan yang tak pasti namun dipercaya, berusaha untuk bertahan akan rasa cinta.

cinta yang menyakitkan hati,cinta yang tak ingin berpisah, cinta yang ingin bertemu, cinta yang lembut, cinta yang membuat jarak, cinta yang membuat gila.

berat,tapi aku bertahan,aku percaya,aku berusaha,bagaimana dengan kamu?

aku akan menunggu,sampai bisa bertemu kembali, aku akan menunggu.apapun arti yang dimaksud menunggu, aku akan menunggu, aku janji, tapi akankah kamu mau?

semua berarti kalau kamu mau. ada di pilihanmu, sekarang aku hanya menunggu kamu akan mengatakan apa.

cinta.itu benar,rasa yang ada padaku untukmu

kutau kalau ku tlah benar-benar jatuh cinta.

27 september 2009

haven't write about 9 days? been busy lately.not of study, not of homework, it just holiday.

really nice holiday i get this time.

holiday start at 19 september 2009.

doing nothing at that day until 22 septemebr 2009.22 september, cleaning my room, change bed cover, sweeping also.

23 september, going to airport pick up y.

23-27 spending time with y.been lovely day.

27 go to airport again, y going back.

now? at home. doing nothing, seing photo that i take lately.thinking about tomorrow class start again.holiday finish.

18 september 2009

miracle.god helps me to wake up at 5.30 in the morning.i have class,chinese class at 7.15.

we're gonna have small test for today. arrive at school at 7.11!

the test have 4 part.part one is translate from english to mandarin.

for example : 1. coca cola = kekou kele. (seriously, this is weird, kekou kele??wkwk)

then the part two is conversation.

ex : A= ...............?

B= wo ye hen hao.

part 3! which i just fill one number from ten number.

ex: 1. he is not a doctor. (translate )

part 4! dictation!!! oh my god. hopefully what i heard and what i write is correct.

let see the result next two week!

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holiday starts today! untill 27(sunday).

28 class start again.just one week study then i have midterm for one week from october 5-11.

and after that week, i have my birthday week at 16. october, huh.

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wish days move faster except for 23-27(slow as it can be).

cause i want to be in next year.iinternship,work.6 months.

cmon,help me god so i can get the job for my intern in you know where i want to.

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5 more days.

with you.

15 september 2009

god,this is the second week i was late to class.again. wake up at 8.30 which my friend call to wake me up,but still.after saying "yeah, i wake up now.bye" i go to sleep again.

i have this problem of waking up since in high school.so i arrive in class with hungry stomach, pale face of shock cause late,in rush, messy hair. argh,i don't care anymore as long i enter class and be absent!

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8days,one week plus one day more.

thinking how fun could it be, how sweet would it be.oh god, please make this memorable,unforgetful,you know..something that could be sweet loving passion things?

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many birthday coming up o september , october, the most december.

so yesterday, when i walk with a bunch friends, i realize one of us missing.the korean girl.

i ask to ibo ''hey, where is ha nul kim? why she's not at class today?"

" ha nul going to korea." she said.

me,shockingly hear what she said cause last time last holiday she going back to korean already..it's like three time going back korea.omg, go there not cheap!expensive!about 8 million maybe?

"what???! she's going to korea again???? for what?!holiday even not start yet!" i said

"her boyfriend birthday,she want to go back there so she can celebrate with him.crazy huh." ibo say to me.

seriously it's crazyyyy...korea to damn far!it's like 24hour to go there..or less...but still far far far!

arghh i'm jealoussss.....

gaby also..she said to me, she going to malaysia like 3oktober? just one day celebrate birthday with her boyfriend?then going back at 4? haiz..

11 september 2009

lately almost everyday i update this blog, feel like into this things.bored of browsing songs which nothing new has come out, also bored of facebook.yesterday i meet my sister at mall after class then we have lunch together.finally i eat fried bun with sweet and sour crab souce, accompany ice honey peach tea.sweet! we talk about many things.from boyfriend until girlfriend, family to friends, good to bad . then, luckily or unluckily i bring this notebook and open facebook again...

see her,see him,see many people that we talk about.

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well today, chinese test cancel, second class cancel, third class cancel.

seriously, if this continue to next week, then, what do i get from studying in this university?

my dad pay alot for this! yea i know this fun, have no class so can go home faster, but, like this always i also dont want. like playing more, study less.

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i been introduce to J last couple day. friend of a friend.

but i told already that i'm into someone right now. less or not,believe or not, i'm in love. someone far away.waiting to meet for the second time

10 september 2009

update blog at class now.english class which is so boring. luckily this university have wifi internet every class, so i use this benefit as much as i can get.luckily i also bring my laptop,which every thursday gonna be boring day,unimportant subject.

still 45 minute to break.thinking of eating fruit which just last maybe for 39 minute, or eat vegetable which also can last maybe couple hour.btw, i gain weight 1 kg.also while listening to touch your button by wyclef jean feat will.i.am(nice song!) and all the time looking at phone wether there's message from someone far away there,(Y,still hasnt wake up?haha)

look around, infront of me, there's stevi with her lovely laptop,put all of her attention to play restaurant city at facebook.beside me, right.there's yoon young jae, silly cute teenager boy who like to flirt(used to get close long time ago,he's funny though,) and right now he also busy of putting his mind of rubrix.trying with all of his energy make all the cube same colour.ahahaha i try already and that's hard.

behind me there's gabriela,one of my circle friend at university,out of circle which is when we're not in university,we go each other way.mean? she hang out with i dont know who,me with other friends.like that. i don't know exactly what is she doing but i'm pretty sure she's now msn with her boyfriend which is already goin back to malaysia,kuala lumpur.he study there.

in my left? nothing.there's wall. i like to sit near wall.not like to get attention too much sit in the center.let me squeeze there.

8 september 2009

still, cant wake up from sleep in the morning.i think i already late for four times in this week and last week.why? cause i'm too lazy open my eyes.thinking there's still time for lying on bed. so today i miss one class, which is bartending theory class. but i still go to campus for second class;front office practical which only for 1 hour. then for the third class which is housekeeping theory...the lecture didnt come! why? she visiting other lecture(young handsome lecture,the youngest than the other) because he was in hospital, operation.don't know why.

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today Sucks.really... for the bad weather, which is really really damn hot. hot in jakarta and tangerang define by if you stand in one place which you can see the sky really long..just stand.i believe in half an hour u can pass out cause the damn hot. see, i can't stand anymore..

also BBM! why all the time it must lag when sending message!!

oh, i clean up my room also today..more clean and tidy..

before i clean my room, when i webcaming with Y, i show my room(the table especially), then guess what Y say?

look like after war, or world war -something like that.. hahahaha

6 september 2009

since it's 12.07 AM and my blackberry said already september of six.today is so fun, even i was late of waking up,,i sleep almost 14 hours dear said.and wake up because of message,which told me to wake up.see, i have to arrange my sleep time, can't continue like this forever.

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today i just hang out with bunch of friends,having dinner,let the stress out. i've been thinking about buying polaroid,yes i will buy but dont know when..maybe next week or 2 more weeks.

webcaming with Y too,everytime chat make me happy,i don't know why but i will always laugh,it's good for me though. counting days too meet Y

4 sept 2009

boring boring boring, sleepy sleepy sleepy! why every day so sleepy,even i have much sleep, but in time when i have to get up at 6 am, still cant get up.every day late to study for almost one hour.

i must change this,,schedule of my sleep time.

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AJ Rafael

i hve been watching this guy singing on outube almost for one week,since melissa told me about him. he has good voice,kinda like ne yo or chris brown, kinda that..

i cant upload now, cause lately my internet connection damn slow for upload things.

if we ever- david guetta feat makeba

I've been fragile for a long time
A big old hole inside my heart
And I was searching through the valley
Stumbled on love in the dark

Was afraid to try but afraid to never know
What it feels like to be loved
Had a hill to climb
but the places we could go
Oh, I gotta know

So if we ever, fell in love
Would the wind know, would the _____ go, oh
So if we ever, fell in love
Oh, oh, oh

I was empty it was all gone
The birds would sing but made no sound
Till I met you, found I was all wrong
You picked me up right off the ground

Was afraid to try, and afraid i'd fall again
crashing down from the sky, you know
Had a hill to climb, but when_________
That's the one thing, we all wanna know

So if we ever, fell in love
Would the wind blow, would the ____ go, oh
So if we ever fell in love
Oh, oh, oh

I just wanna know, I just wanna know
tell me tell me so, baby I just wanna know
(repeat x4)

So if we ever fell in love
would the wind know, would the ____ go, oh
(yeah) so if we ever fell in love
Oh, oh, oh

So if we ever fell in love
oh, I wanna know what it feels lïke to be loved