it's like a plague

lately, so many people especially the girl...

break up, broken heart, cry out, missing, lonely.

i dont know why this happen, seriously...almost people i know, friend of mine..

most of them broke up with their lover..

simply a simple problem.. "can't do anymore" that's what they said..

is this middle of this year is the risk of a relationship??

i don't know, i can't answer..

because i'm no longer in that part of relationship..

enough of trying

enough of getting hurt

even tough i said it over and over..

still..

getting hurt..

everywhere,inside and out

from every side of my mind

i can still feel it

this hope

a little hope

of being love by the one i love

vanished

i can"t trust

i wont open it, my heart

i'm scared, yes

scared of getting hurt

scared losing you

scared cant get you out of my mind,my head

even though i cant have you,

i close my eyes

those flashback, i can make it appear

when first saw you

never thought of getting know you

but we do

we do know each other finally

i close my eyes,

missing you like a crazy person miss their sanity

i close my eyes,

dreaming you so often

i close my eyes,

breathing in and out,picturing you

i close my eyes,

praying that could meet you

i close my eyes,

listen to the song you like,

i close my eyes,

read over and over text messages

this is my feeling

some fool secret that open her darkness box